I invite you to join me on an ephemeral journey. Jump on this train of thought, which just arrived now. We will travel it without worrying about its destination, only with certain certainty / hope that the trip will be worth it one way or another. Faith in destiny. It reminds me of the time I was driving in Holland with a friend, returning from visiting an intentional community in Germany, when at a gas station a young man asked me if he could come. When I asked him where he was going, he told me that he didn't know, that he had no destination. I was very surprised by this, I have never encountered anything like this before. Eventually, I invited him to the intentional community where I lived on the border of Germany and Holland, near the Rhine River. I was the volunteer coordinator and told him he could volunteer for as long as he wanted. He would work 6 hours a day for 5 days a week in exchange for room and board. Still, he was a bit skeptical. He ended up staying there for over a year and made many lasting friendships and learned a lot about himself, and we are still friends to this day.

What also comes to mind is a 19-year-old German man I met in Auroville, India, where I volunteered at an intentional community called Sadhana Forest, which was on the outskirts of Auroville, an international spiritual community created around 1970. He had just completed a few months walking around India with no money. He was very full of light and strength. Everything had gone well for him.

Really relinquishing control can be hard to do and get into a train of thought with me, not knowing that the destination is much easier than the 2 examples above you should think. So far the train has only gone backwards as the 2 stories are from the past. Now we must return to this very moment and perhaps look out the windows. I must say look as the windows just go further in and don't look at all.

Since I am a multidimensional creature, there are too many levels for me to meet them all. It's similar to trying to hear 2 people talking at the same time, it's impossible. Our brains are limited in this way, otherwise they could be having many conversations at the same time. Instead, people have to wait their turn to speak, even though many interrupt without much conscience or remorse.

I have a friend who gets upset every time he interrupts him. I like to think that it's not an interruption, it's an interjection. But that distinction may be too subtle for you to care.

Marshall Rosenberg, the late founder of nonviolent communication (cnvc.org) would always say that one should interrupt the moment someone is talking more than he would like. I like that idea. I even like to interrupt myself, like now... we interrupt this monologue to announce that the river has overflowed and the tree house is floating. I hope I can find my giant rubber ducky, so I can stay afloat. Things were very nice, and now I am fighting for my life. It is a miracle that I can continue writing.

The line of thought is going up the mountain, leaving the rushing river behind. It has saved me from being swept away and becoming another creepy piece of debris, or wreckage all twisted and creepy. This line of thought rescued me at the last moment. My body remains alive, dry and vital. Now, I think I'll get out of here and take a walk in these mountains and spend some time without experiencing any thoughts, if I can. Life is so exciting, scary and full of emotions, even when you are sitting alone in bed. We remind you to join me, or just keep riding until you find the urge to leave. Bye.

How does chaos theory relate to romantic relationships? Imagine that his/her partner is a woman who seems "crazy", she gets angry very easily and her anger is fierce, she complains "too much". In other words, she seems to be an emotionally disoriented woman, most of the time, and living with her is like being in hell. You might be thinking, "I need to get away from this, I need freedom." Divorce is often the result and when children are involved the effects can be horrible. I know this from experience, unfortunately. After many years, I think I have come to understand the dynamics, the underlying causes much more clearly.

One of the bases of chaos theory is that a small change in the beginning can have big ramifications, an example is the "butterfly effect"; the flapping of a butterfly's wings in one part of the world could start a hurricane in another part of the world.

My theory is that a spouse's explosive behavior is often due to something not so small or could be as big as a circumstance from her past de ella, perhaps from her unresolved childhood trauma(s). This effect is intensified if the woman is pregnant or has children, because for her de ella, what is at stake is much more. In short, if the woman does not feel that her husband is 100% dedicated to her and her family, the result will be an avalanche of negative behavior. The man, failing to see that the perception of her devotion or lack thereof is the cause, can only conclude that his wife of him is simply insane. And a vicious circle is created, because the more the woman acts, the more the man has doubts about being in the relationship, and her devotion to her is proportionally reduced.

While, on the other hand, if a woman feels that her husband is with her all the way, she will shine her love on him 100 times. This illustrates another theory of mine, which is, to be in a happy relationship, all one has to do is keep the woman "happy, content." What most men don't seem to realize is that once you enter a relationship, you have allowed a powerful force into your immediate existence, and if you don't keep that force happy, you will live with a hurricane. While at the same time, if those forces are connected, you will enjoy all the pleasures of being loved. We have a tendency to underestimate ourselves and others.

For her to be content she must be meeting most all of her needs from her as they arise, her from her real needs from her. You, her love from her ca n't meet all of her needs from her, and she knows it. And you are not responsible for satisfying her "imagined" needs, or some whims, like many, or others, for example... a new dress, etc. These really are strategies to meet real needs. She may want a new dress because she has a need for love and affection, and she figures that if she looks prettier, you will be more willing to give her that. You can find a list of what are considered "real needs" at nonviolent communication (cnvc.org). It helps a lot to be able to distinguish between what is a "need" and what is really a strategy to satisfy a need.

Another helpful tip might be to never try to "fix" whatever is bothering her, it's better to empathize (guess, sense her feelings and needs her). She will appreciate it much more.

Finally, I must warn women who are using intense anger to guide or manipulate their man, it will only create a relationship full of internal resentment, doubt, uncertainty and not love. This is the opposite of patriarchy, where men treat women violently and unfairly. It's just as bad when women act this way towards men. The "new paradigm" is a relationship with a lot of love, if we love each other as we are, without trying to change each other, but instead fine tuning the relationship, smoothing it our, a relationship of acceptance and respect where there are not ugly fights. Misunderstandings, disappointments, etc. they may arise, but they will be resolved without resorting to anger, with clear communication, one can express what they wish to see manifested. In this way they can preserve the dignity that all relationships need.

I hope these few simple ideas bring clarity and help you enjoy all the beauty and joy that a good relationship promises. And please forgive me for the presumptuous notion to advise.

Relationships Should Be Happy or What's the Point?

How does chaos theory relate to romantic relationships? Imagine that his/her partner is a woman who seems "crazy", she gets angry very easily and her anger is fierce, she complains "too much". In other words, she seems to be an emotionally disoriented woman, most of the time, and living with her is like being in hell. You might be thinking, "I need to get away from this, I need freedom". Divorce is often the result and when children are involved the effects can be horrible. I know this from experience, unfortunately. After many years, I think I have come to understand the dynamics, the underlying causes much more clearly.

One of the bases of chaos theory is that a small change in the beginning can have big ramifications, an example is the "butterfly effect"; the flapping of a butterfly's wings in one part of the world could start a hurricane in another part of the world.

My theory is that a spouse's explosive behavior is often due to something not so small or could be as big as a circumstance from her past, perhaps from her unresolved childhood trauma(s). This effect is intensified if the woman is pregnant or has children, because for her, what is at stake is much more. In short, if the woman does not feel that her husband is 100% dedicated to her and her family, the result will be an avalanche of negative behavior. The man, failing to see that the perception of her devotion or lack thereof is the cause, can only conclude that his wife is simply insane. And a vicious circle is created, because the more the woman acts, the more the man has doubts about being in the relationship, and her devotion is proportionally reduced.

While, on the other hand, if a woman feels that her husband is with her all the way, she will shine her love on him 100 times. This illustrates another theory of mine, which is, to be in a happy relationship, all one has to do is keep the woman "happy, content." What most men don't seem to realize is that once you enter a relationship, you have allowed a powerful force into your immediate existence, and if you don't keep that force happy, you will live with a hurricane. While at the same time, if those forces are connected, you will enjoy all the pleasures of being loved. We have a tendency to underestimate ourselves and others.

For her to be content she must be meeting most all of her needs as they arise, her real needs. You, her love can't meet all of her needs, and she knows it. And you are not responsible for satisfying her "imagined" needs, or some whims, like many, or others, for example... a new dress, etc. These are really strategies to meet real needs. She may want a new dress because she has a need for love and affection, and she figures that if she looks prettier, you will be more willing to give her that. You can find a list of what are considered "real needs" at nonviolent communication (cnvc.org). It helps a lot to be able to distinguish between what is a "need" and what is really a strategy to satisfy a need.

Another helpful tip might be to never try to "fix" whatever is bothering her, it's better to empathize (guess, sense her feelings and needs). She will appreciate it much more.

Finally, I must warn women who are using intense anger to guide or manipulate their man, it will only create a relationship full of internal resentment, doubt, uncertainty and not love. This is the opposite of patriarchy, where men treat women violently and unfairly. It's just as bad when women act this way towards men. The "new paradigm" is a relationship with a lot of love, if we love each other as we are, without trying to change each other, but instead fine tuning the relationship, smoothing it our, a relationship of acceptance and respect where there are no ugly fights. Misunderstandings, disappointments, etc. they may arise, but they will be resolved without resorting to anger, with clear communication, one can express what they wish to see manifested. In this way they can preserve the dignity that all relationships need.

I hope these few simple ideas bring clarity and help you enjoy all the beauty and joy that a good relationship promises.

What is important for you? Is it the air you breathe? Here, every breath is so fresh, it really seems special. I like to remember that. How precious it is. Our relationships, so tenuous, so fragile, so ethereal, we must honor them at all times. A blessing to feel connected to someone, even for a second, share a joke or share something. It's like holding hands in free fall. Since we are all falling at exactly the same speed, it seems that we are not falling at all. We share this illusion, of not falling, but we're all falling, until we take our last breath and the journey ends, and people gather around our corpse and sits motionless, feeling the loss. It's as if all of us, sharing this existence, were in the same elevator as it descends, sharing the inevitable pull of gravity to... the first floor.

What is important for you? Isn't it the trip? How do you feel when you get out of the elevator? What was your experience with all the others? Did you link? Was it significant? or scary, or painful? Is your life worthy of you? Is it sacred, joyful and profound, free and open? Or do you hate yourself inside for leading a less than magnificent existence? A life that has been stripped of all its dignity due to the foul taste left by cigarettes and alcohol, the gross and ubiquitous commodification of every aspect of its existence, the yolk of capitalism firmly mounted on our shoulders,, fighting for the the next dollar needed to stay alive, to be comfortable. Sell ​​your soul to survive or prosper.

You have been crushed by the weight of the system. You must compromise something so precious and sacred in order to survive and get here. What have you sacrificed to get here? Did you sell part of your soul? That's everyone's little secret behind the happy faces. Don't worry, if you're reading this, you're probably still whole or holy, and don't need to feel shame or remorse.

After all, there is something within that remains forever spotless and unblemished, our saving grace. This is how we can go and love each other and forgive, and never be arrogant, as if to judge.

The system is to bring you down, like a young horse, to tame you into an obedient slave, with your spirit diminished and compromised. Why is it so exciting to watch children? Is it not because you can see the human in it's free and unbroken state? But if they go to school, it won't be true for long. They too will be broken.

I asked in the past, why do children stop skipping at a certain age? Perhaps it is a sign that they have been robbed of their sense of delight and enchantment, and their unbridled lust for life has become adult, that is, severely diminished, and the game is no longer so carefree and easy. Because, you may notice that adults have forgotten how to play freely and need to get drunk.

In the story called Peter Pan, the little flying boy did not want to grow up. Why is that? This essay addresses that question. What do we lose to get here?

Here is an example of how karma might work. Someone (me) rides a motorcycle in our little town of Vilcabamba, without a helmet. Why? Because he doesn't like wearing one and he doesn't like being told by law that he has to. The police stop him and ask for his license. He doesn't have one because the exam is in Spanish and his Spanish isn't very good yet. The police tell him that he will have to go to jail in the nearest city, that is, Loja, 45 minutes away. They escort him to his house where he may find his license, but he can't because he doesn't have one. He has to do with the “fine”. If he pays $100 they will fix everything and take him back to his motorcycle that he left behind, and they will never catch him again for not wearing a helmet.

​This is how the police supplement their income. They may not be paid enough to support their families comfortably, and they feel that they have to do this for the good of their families. They justify it by thinking that foreigners have much more money, that this is the way to equalize things a little, a small way. So this is a very common thing in Ecuador and in the world. It's called corruption.


People have to find ways to "beat the system." Because the system is based on scarcity and people are always needing "more". This system we call capitalism puts most people "between a rock and a hard place." To survive, it seems, many people have to do things that lack integrity. It's like saying "lie or die". The system corrupts the public and everyone becomes a criminal or a victim, or both. This is an aspect of capitalism that is rarely thought about. We know that corruption exists everywhere and it is very clear that it is simply a characteristic of the system, and that the system wants all people to participate in corruption. Capitalism and corruption are inseparable.


But what about karma? Is it okay to live without integrity? Does survival justify it? This question was explored in Victor Hugo's play Les Miserables, when Jean Val Jean was arrested and put in prison for stealing a loaf of bread to feed his family. When you live without personal integrity, at the expense of others, you also lose your inner dignity, all your children suffer from having a dishonest father. This is where karma hits you, but it's not that obvious. It cannot be measured, we can only guess. The innocence of the children is overshadowed by living under a corrupt father or a mother who behaves without honesty. This is why most arms dealers are likely to have children who behave in antisocial ways, I daresay. This is how karma works, often mysteriously invisibly. It is homeostasis, the invisible “justice”.​

​Morning message: who do you serve?

Assuming you have reached the spiritual level where you realize that living a full and sacred life is all about service, relinquishing the egocentric self or at least placing it under the truest and deepest understanding of who you are, that you are a being with only temporary substance, which is pure light or love or spirit that emanates from the source, or a point of consciousness that has the capacity to feel, to love. That is, not to get lost in the illusion of your life, who you are and the drama of the outside world.

I hope I'm not assuming too much. I know it's generally foolish to assume anything. But if you're a reader of mine, you've probably reached this level of "enlightenment."  Your life flows, you are living your dreams, you are shining, you attract wonderful people and things and events. You are in your power. You have found yourself, yet you continue to evolve. You have discovered that by serving others, you are serving yourself in the best possible way. You have a sense of humor, you are humble, you highly value personal integrity, and you are a master servent.

So the question for today is: is there a conflict between serving "God" or serving humanity? In my opinion, there is no difference. It is by serving humanity that one serves "God". For me, I don't like to think of "God", mainly because the concept is beyond my comprehension and personifying "God" seems limiting and anthropomorphic. So I prefer to think of "God" as everything there is and everything there isn't.

When I take the time to appreciate all that I have in my life, it is not appreciation towards some entity like "God." It's just appreciation and gratitude for the richness of existing. It is an awareness that everything is a gift. I realize I can never be thankful enough as the gift of life is so monumental and I would hate to take any of it for granted, which however, I do almost all the time. For example, the air I breathe every second and the ability to breathe, to see and feel, the food on my plate, the love that surrounds me, the infinite possibilities of awareness, the stars in the sky, etc., etc. . .

Like friction time wears away novelty. That is, over time we get used to everything. We are extremely adaptable., which has its positive and negative side. The down side is that after a while, we lose our sense of wonder, like the first time a child sees a horse. It seems that our awareness dims when we take things for granted.

We may have a wonderful partner who really loves us by attending and really caring for us. The worst thing is to take this for granted. This is a huge mistake and it happens all the time all over the world. If you look at how women who might be doing so much to support the family end up being taken for granted. This is tragic; to be constantly giving to someone who is not conscientious enough to appreciate the generousity of one's spirit. Of course, one gives without the need for reward. A gift is a gift. But without awareness, everything loses meaning.

However, in the end, I believe that all that is necessary is to serve love, perhaps love is all that exists, that we are love embodied. In this life we ​​have the opportunity to explore love and how we can be loving in all situations, forms and with everyone. This is how we serve.

We live in the valley of rainbows with smiling faces that shine through tears. Perhaps the balance between happiness and sadness is equal as the times push us gently or harshly towards oblivion or eternity. It seems that each of us has something within us that helps to keep us emotionally balanced and perhaps determines whether we are smiling or crying from moment to moment. When that "mechanism" disappears, we may enter into depression, a deep and dark tunnel. It could be the fear of the "unknown", of what awaits us, that undermines our lightness. It could be many things. What happens to people we know can be horrible, its agonies, injustices, and misfortunes, and we are reminded that it can happen to us, if it hasn't already. It could erupt as anxiety or panic attacks or insecurity. But what about all the beauty, the love, the care, the laughter, the companionship, the good times, the hopes, and the possibilities? Don't they keep us afloat? My mechanism is like a rubber ducky, it always pops backup.

Many of us walk this "lonely valley" surrounded by friends and loved ones, but how deep are these connections? Aren't they like the crust of the earth, somewhat deep, but not to the core? Next to us are those who walk it alone, isolated, without love, sometimes just walking with a limp. What about them? Aren't they part of us too? Can someone be completely happy while others around us are suffering? Should we toughen up to keep our balance in a world full of injustice and cruelty? It seems that the psyche of many is created and shaped quite unconsciously as an anecdote to this existential enigma that we all share. That our personalities could simply be a reaction to the reality we find ourselves in, an attempt to keep our balance in the valley of smiles and tears.

What should humanity learn from all the negatives in the world today? First, people must learn to take full responsibility for their own lives, as individuals, in their family, community, nation, and world. Second, organize to become a force. It is obvious that individually we are powerless before the state, before the controllers. That's it, it's what humanity needs to learn, in my opinion.

Something else to take into account is the possibility of the very obvious fact that everything is controlled by the CIA and those that control the CIA, since they have endless funds, and they do not have effective oversight or accountability. Trying to dismantle it is putting your life on the line, as it was with JFK. We ask who is responsible for all the misinformation on the internet, making it impossible to know what to believe, and undermining how effective it could be for information sharing? It's obvious: the cia. Who else is going to take the trouble to do it?

It seems that humanity is really lost, because it is trapped in an environment of lies and misinformation  that most everyone believes to be true. Again, it is obvious that this can have a disturbing effect, causing people to feel confused, addicted, or crazy, rendering them powerless. Just as a herd of cows can be controlled by a few men or dogs, so it is with mankind. In this way humanity remains enslaved and powerless. Right now, it seems that no one has a clue how to get out of this trap. Also, it seems that almost no one offers any solutions, much less recognizes how trapped humanity is.

Just as almost every person on this planet thinks that it is necessary for human beings to have to pay to live here, when in fact, it is a clearly absurd idea that ends up killing millions of people who do not have money to survive. The obviousness of this statement, and the blindness of the masses, clearly demonstrates the difficult situation in which humanity finds itself today. The situation seems hopeless. It seems that the checkmate is inevitable, but we still have a sliver of hope as long as we are alive.

But humanity should wake up soon. Perhaps the first thing is to recognize the falsity of their identity, which is equivalent to being governed by the false being, the ego. This initial and essential programming has to be replaced with a more accurate assessment of who we really are. Our egoic being is just an unconscious construction that occurred as a result of all the experiences lived. It was unconsciously created by conditioning and circumstance. It is far from the essence of who we really are. I suggest that it might be more accurate to imagine that we are emanations from the source, and much larger than we think. That we are not a thing, nor a body, nor a person, that we are too insubstantial for such, that what we are is a verb, and the verb is love.